Beautiful World

I drove to the barn today, Sage Creek Equestrian, after being away for the last two weeks, missing my mare Trillium aka "Tess" and looking forward to my ride.  I wondered if I would even be able to ride due to the nasty cold/cough that has bothering me for the last week and a half.  I started feeling so bummed out, that I might not be able ride, that the closer I got the bummier I got.  Well, this is NO WAY to go to the barn!  So, I decided to turn on NPR and listen to something new, something to distract me from my blues.  

NPR has a great feature called "Talk of the Nation" that I like.  Anyway, they were interviewing a woman named Emily Rapp, a writer/teacher and mother.  It was her role as mother that began to strike a chord with me.  Emily, has a son named Ronan, a beautiful son, one that smiles, coos, cuddles, cries, and giggles.  However, Ronan has a disease called Tay-Sachs and will not live past his fourth birthday.

 As this woman, this mother, Emily Rapp discussed what it is like to parent a 18 month old terminally ill child, tears started streaming down my face.  All I could picture was how active little 18 month old boys are, running, rolling, giggling, tickling, exploring, studying and learning about how their world works, all I could see is how this little boy must be missing out.  But then Emily Rapp, his mother, said the thing that made this radio feature so much more personal for me than just your average interview. 
 "And, you know, I just want him to be surrounded by love for his whole life and he might be unique in the sense that he will only have ever experienced unconditional love his entire - for the whole span of his life. So I often think about that when the days are hard" - Emily Rapp.
I almost stopped the car.  "Unconditional love for the whole span of his life"  what would that look like? Feel like?  Be like?  To give that?  Here I drove to Heber City, feeling sorry for this mother and her baby boy only to discover that in a small way I envied them?????
Is that right?  Doesn't quite make sense--- now don't get me wrong, I don't want anything like that for my "little man" but I wonder what type of life that would be to live, one of unconditional love, and if you could offer that type of love to someone what type of person would that make you?  Does that make sense?  I hope so.  It makes me stop and think, Am I truly giving all my love, compassion, empathy, understanding, kindness and hope to all of those that I love?
The answer, sadly probably is no, but I can hope and strive that one day the answer to that question will be yes.
While I strive to be a better person and to hopefully learn from Emily Rapp's example I will enjoy the little things that Cole gives us everyday.  Such as this delightful photo shoot that was in prom-to during dinner tonight.  "Little Man" delighted in giving me his best silly grin every time I said "smile!"  I love that little guy, I love the little life that he gave me, I love being an important part of his beautiful world.

 

Check Please?

Today, my dear sweet hubs sent me off to the Doctor to make sure that I don't have Bronchitis (thankfully, I don't) and he declared that he will be in charge of dinner tonight!  Now least that we all forget the interesting dinner the hubs made the last time he declared that he would "cook" here is a little  reminder of what my husband is capable of "cooking".  Eck!

Thankfully, this time my husband was really making his world famous sweet n' sour chicken, my favorite!  As luck would have it, though, it appeared to be my turn to take what should be a delicious meal into something that was....well...not.

What is this?  If you guessed a fly, you would be correct.  Why would this icky insect ruin our meal?

Well, before heading home I stopped at Harmon's to pick up some salad for dinner.  The hubs, put some salad on his plate and was almost FINISHED when he saw it!  THE FLY!!!! It was just lying there in all of its insect glory, dead.  Gross!!!

On the plus side, the hubs actually finished the salad, despite the fly.  Let's face it, it can't be that different from an Army meal in the chow hall.  

ummmmm.........check please?

Moral of this story:  Apparently even Harmon's can mess up their produce.... and when you find a fly in your newly bought salad, throw the whole batch out.

Do You Like It?

So, here it is.  My new blog, this background will only last, of course, until December 1st.  After that, game on!  It is Christmas!  However, for now this is what I have come up with.  Let me know what you think.  Any suggestions?  Would love some! 

I Need Your Help!

Hello Family and Friends!

I am sure many of you have already seen this on my Facebook page and have already posted, which I appreciate. However, my team is still down by 56 votes! If any of you could pass this link on to your friends I would LOVE LOVE LOVE it!!!!! Here is the link again.....

http://bit.ly/u9vo5h

What?

I was at school the other day and one of my friends asked me if I had a blog...ummmm.....yeah? I mean it is there but has been sadly neglected. So, here I am trying to revitalize my effort to document my families life.
Well, today I have turned up ill so what better way waist my time between coughs, blowing nose, and runs to the you know what.
This is my almost two year old "little man" Cole. He has grown a TON! Since the last picture I posted of him. He walks, no runs, everywhere now and can say "woof,woof! mama, dada, no, wheeeeee! hot, ouchie, hi, bye bye, vroom, vroom, grandma, and grandpa." He loves dogs, trucks, cars, being outside and his favorite person is his papa. The hubs and little man are best friends. The second Cole hears the garage door open he runs to the door and reaches for the handle and shouts "Dada!Dada!" The hubs leaps through the door and swoops up little man and says loudly "MY little boy! I Love You!" Everyday this happens and everyday I smile because my little boy is so loved. This year I finally got my first stamp on my passport as well. I took a much needed mommy break and flew to Canada to visit a very dear friend. I hated the flights and the layover, but I loved the adventure of doing it all on my own, I have never flown without one of my parents or the hubs before so it was exciting to be out on my own. I almost missed my flight into Vancouver, due to some bad directions from airport personnel but by accessing the random $20 in my wallet I was able to persuade a hotel bus driver to get me to the right gate on time with only five minutes to spare! I'm so grateful! Because otherwise I would have missed this.....Stunning right? Canada is gorgeous!!! Can't wait to go back. After I got back, Halloween was in full swing and it was Cole's first "real" Halloween, the first time he tricked and treated. We went to Grandma W's house and this is how cute he was......
After that we headed to Aunt Becky's, Aunt Amy's, Nana's, and Grandma Kays. He loved every minute of it and even kept his dinosaur costume on! After that we went around the block in our neighborhood and I have never been so happy as I was when I saw my son stand at the door and hold out his pumpkin and take just one piece of candy from the bowl. He laughed when he saw other kids running around in their costumes and loved answering our door saying "Hi! and Bye!Bye!" to all the kids. I think he loves Halloween almost as much as his daddy!
Now, Thanksgiving is around the corner and this semester is coming to a close and I will soon be graduating with me BA in Communications/PR. What I will do with that? I don't know........... but at least I will have it. The fall leaves are not the only things that are changing quickly this year.....
"Stuff" is happening that will change our day to day lives, but all I can leave you with now is just that teaser. I promise to tell you all more next week, most likely. I know! I am just that much of a stinker! LOL!
In the mean time though, I will give you this adorable picture to help you past the time.